The Peace and Serenity of it all….never would have experienced any of it if I had not gotten well.
“The quality of a person’s life is in direct proportion to their commitment to excellence, regardless of their chosen field of endeavor.”
As I have alluded to in some of my past posts, all the GOOD in my life is in direct proportion to the activity I have been taught to ‘do’ in AA. To me that means that my life is good so long as I am following the principles in AA and living my life as outlined to me from the members of AA that went before me. They taught me to do what they did and make AA a part of my life until it was my life. Well, because I was so sick and tired of being sick and tired, I did that. And my life today, in spite of the occasional blah days, my life is full and I feel I have purpose in my life.
I was given a plan of action…my life became more than just words…it became and continues to be a commitment on a daily basis. I also learned that by making a commitment it meant that I would be carrying “it” through, from start to finish. So, before I say YES to anything, I make sure I have the time and desire to really follow through. I have said NO to many things because I am not afraid to any more, but more than that, if it isn’t something I don’t want to or can’t do then I no longer say yes just to be a People Pleaser.
I will go to any length to stay clean and sober. It was overwhelming to make a lifelong commitment to sobriety, so I followed “One Day at a Time.” Using this day-by-day pace, I was able to string together time and a new life. I afraid, as I was of EVERYTHING, of making a long-term commitment, but I knew I had to. It was a difficult place to be, seemingly stuck between two tremendous fears; fear of going back to using and facing certain catastrophe, and the fear of failure. So, I decided to take a chance on the risk of recovery because at least I knew my odds of succeeding and living a worthwhile life were better than if I went back to using. How? By the POWER OF EXAMPLES right in front of me. These AA members had made a commitment to get WELL and it was working for them. No matter what was going on in their lives, they did not pick up a drink and the seemed to be happy most times with smiles on their faces. I WANTED THAT!!
In my experience, it is my continual commitment on a daily basis that provides the true and enduring path to happiness, joy and serenity!