I Like Dreamin’

I heard a song today… “I Like Dreamin'” sung by Kenny Nolan.

I like dreamin’ cause dreamin’ can make you mine.
I like dreamin’, closing my eyes and feeling fine.
When the lights go down, I’m holding you so tight.
Got you in my arms and it’s paradise ’til the morning light.
I see us on the shore beneath the bright sunshine.
We’ve walked along St. Thomas beach a million times.
Hand in hand, two barefoot lovers kissing in the sand.
Side by side, the tide rolls in.
I’m touching you, you’re touching me.
If only it could be.
I like dreamin’ cause dreamin’ can make you mine.
I like dreamin’, closing my eyes and feeling fine.
When the lights go down, I’m holding you so tight.
Got you in my arms and it’s paradise ’til the morning light.
Through each dream how our love has grown.
I see us with our children and our happy home.
Little smiles, so warm and tender looking up at us.
Blessed by love, the world we share
Until I wake and reach for you
And you’re just not there.
I like dreamin’ ’cause dreaming can make you mine.
I like holding you close and touching your skin
Even if it’s in my mind.
Oh, sweet dream baby, I love you.
Oh, my sweet dream baby, you’re in my dreams every night.
Songwriters: KENNY NOLAN
© Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC,Spirit Music Group

This song was released in a very uncertain, although special time in my life.  However at the same time this year became one of the best years of my life. I think  that the song, if I read and listen to the lyrics mean more to me today that they did then. Many of my favorite songs are like that today. They touch my life so much more than when they first came out or when I first heard them.  I could name dozens…I can remember where I was, who I was with and what was going on when I hear a song. Funny I can’t remember what I did a few minutes ago.

Another special song for me is a Carole King song called, “Now and Forever”.  I never heard it until a few years back I was on vacation and staying in a condo we rented on the beach at St Augustine.  I went to take a nap and had my headphones on listening to a local radio station and it came on. It took me back to my past immediately. Could not get the song out of my head. I finally found it and found out it was Carole King in fact that sang it. It is on You Tube Now And Forever 

Take a minute and listen to it. You may already know these two songs. If not, take a minute, relax and go check them out.

You may be thinking way this time in my life was so special…I can only say that it was in the sense that I fell in love and had a wonderful time and then we both had to move on…hardest part is that I still think of that person and wished it had worked out differently, but it didn’t. I is ok, because it happened the way it was supposed to happen. This is hard because I have to always remind myself that it is God’s will, not mine that I am supposed to live by. I want it to be totally different but He saw fit for it to turn out this way. As I write these words I still have trouble believing it turned out different from the way I wanted or wished it to. I procrastinated writing about this because of the pain it creates and I was also taught in AA that I was not here to dredge up the past and hurt others from my past. I do know that for me though talking and writing about things helps me to move on…this topic/subject from my past was, is and probably will always be the hardest to move on with. But the bottom line is that even though there is heartache quite often because a lot of things remind me of that time…I have not picked up a drink. That is my ultimate goal on a daily basis. And, I have become useful in so many ways to others, by letting go. Problem is I don’t stay “letting go”.  I would and may still at a future date write about this time in my life but I am not ready and as I mentioned I certainly do not want to hurt anyone else that may have played a major impact in this time of my life. I also want to make it perfectly clear I totally Love and Adore the person I am currently with!!!  I will leave all this tonight with two quotes….

 

 

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Passions

I have many passions in my life. Passion is a feeling of intense enthusiasm towards or compelling desire for someone or something. Passion can range from eager interest in or admiration for an idea, proposal, or cause; to enthusiastic enjoyment of an interest or activity; to strong attraction, excitement, or emotions toward a person.

Softball, music 🎶🎶, cross stitching, unionism, my Chico (Chihuahua), my kids, and a few “someone s.”  I was going to write about some of those today but things change. Lately in my life more often and quickly than I prefer them to. However I not in control of my life. Things happen in my past, distant, but more recent that have made me emotional and angry. Thank goodness I have a close contact with God. He already knows what is going on in my life.He is always watching, knows how I act, what I say and all that stuff. 2018 has stated out rough. Some financial setbacks due to my partners illnesses and my ex husband and his interpretation of an agreement.

I have always had financial insecurity. Even when I was married and we were doing very well. Even when I had jobs and steady income. This is a definite weakness of mine. I truly try to leave it all in God’s hands, I do. Guess this is a lesson I’m still learning. And, I must say I am not very good at.

So as I write this and share it I am beginning to feel better.I don’t write it looking for sympathy but rather to be free of it. Get it out of my head. I am doing everything I can to get to where I need to be….and with that said of course it is all moving to slow 🐌.

Anyway that is where my head is today. Each minute it is getting better, so long as I stay out of my own way.

Now back to my passions….I think I will go work on one of my cross stitch projects.  Thanks for listening….