SEEKING EMOTIONAL STABILITY

AUGUST 22

When we developed still more, we discovered the best possible source of emotional stability to be God Himself. We found that dependence upon His perfect justice, forgiveness, and love was healthy, and that it would work where nothing else would. If we really depended upon God, we couldn’t very well play God to our fellows nor would we feel the urge wholly to rely on human protection and care.                                   TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 116

All my life I depended on people for my emotional needs and security, but today I cannot live that way anymore. By the grace of God, I have admitted my powerlessness over people, places and things. I had been a real “people addict”; wherever I went there had to be someone who would pay some kind of attention to me. It was the kind of attitude that could only get worse, because the more I depended on others and demanded attention, the less I received. I have given up believing that any human power can relieve me of that empty feeling. Although I remain a fragile human being who needs to work A.A.’s Steps to keep this particular principle before my personality, it is only a loving God who can give me inner peace and emotional stability.

Alcoholics Anonymous World Service Inc.. Daily Reflections: A Book of Reflections by A.A. Members for A.A. Members (Kindle Locations 1716-1720). A.A. World Services, Inc.. Kindle Edition.

WOW! What a concept, emotional stability.  Because of the things that came into my mind as a kid and later on in life I had no idea what emotional security was, never mind how to obtain it. As I got well in AA I found that God was my stability. Emotionally and otherwise. I now have the ability to remain calm or even keel when faced with pressure or stress. I now can say “that this too shall pass.”  I am not only powerless with alcohol, but people, places and things as well. I had everything a person could ever want or need, but there was still a huge void in me, a hole. No matter what I did or who I was with, it never was enough to fill it. First AA and the fellowship filled the hole, ultimately God has filled the hole. My emotional stability is in direct proportion to may actions with my relationship with God. He is my go to guy, I do still talk to people and get that human interaction with them but lo and behold, they always tell me to PRAY on it.  … 12&12 Step Seven, p.76
“We would like to be assured that the grace of God can do for us what we cannot do for ourselves.”

24 Hours A Day

A.A. Thought for the Day

“Those who do not recover are people who are constitutionally incapable of being honest with themselves. There are such unfortunates. They are not at fault. They seem to be born that way. They are naturally incapable of grasping and developing a manner of living which demands rigorous honesty. Their chances are less than average. There are those too who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders, but many of them do recover, if they have the capacity to be honest.” Am I completely honest with myself and with other people?

Meditation for the Day

You can make use of your mistakes, failures, losses and sufferings. It is not what happens to you so much as what use you make of it. Take your sufferings, difficulties and hardships and make use of them to help some unfortunate soul who is faced with the same troubles. Then something good will come out of your suffering and the world will be a better place because of it. The good you do each day will live on, after the trouble and distress have gone, after the difficulty and the pain have passed away.

Prayer for the Day

I pray that I may make good use of my mistakes and failures. I pray that some good may result from my painful experiences.

Anonymous. Twenty-Four Hours A Day (p. 96). Martino Fine Books. Kindle Edition.

My Thought…This passage is one that I know by heart. I was one of those people who was constitutionally in capable of being honest with myself. I was so afraid still of people and change that I lied to myself and to everyone around me. Even for three years going to meetings. Thank goodness I continued to go to meeting while continuing to ‘drink’. My last drink was cough medicine, Robitussan. I have recovered from that seemingly hopeless state of mind and body. It took vigorous honesty starting with myself, and then others. Today I am brutally honest, mostly with myself and for sure with others. My intent is not to maliciously hurt anyone, but if I do I have the “tools” to go back and make it right. But I must remain HONEST!

My Meditation…I learn from my mistakes. Sometimes it takes more than one time to get it ‘right’, but it takes what it takes. I pass on freely what I ‘GOT”. It is getting out of myself showing other alcoholics PRECISELY HOW WE HAVE RECOVERED which is the main purpose and Gods will for me. This concept has grown, I use it continually still. If I get out of myself I am passing “IT” on and hopefully something good will come from my suffering.

My Prayer…I pray that I learn from my past and use what I have learned to pass it on to others (Alcoholics and non-alcoholics) so that they may not have to suffer in silence through their own misery and pain!

 

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