The fear of getting better…who wouldn’t want to get well? Lots of people. Many people are afraid of getting better. They are used to living in their chaos, and the fear of the unknown paralyzes and at times scares people to death.
How do I know…I lived it and on occasion still live it. As I write in many of my posts, all I wanted was to be HAPPY!! Well, unbeknownst to me, it was an inside job. I was happy as a kid, as teen, as a young adult and as an adult. I was happy when I graduated high school, college, played on sports teams, with my friends, got married to my high school sweetheart, had our children, watched them grow, on and on and on…..
I was happy. But I was still sacred of everything. I was happy as long as I was in my comfort zone, once I had to move to the left or the right of that I was terrified. What if I couldn’t please my parents, teachers, coaches, friends, husband, in-laws, kids…
So my solution. Don’t change a thing! I stayed the way I was. About 27 years ago, I started to change. I was so ‘sick and tired of being sick and tired” I walked into a church basement, found the Solution and the rest is history. The fear of getting better started there…I now became afraid if I got better, I’d lose my husband, my kids, my friends, my family, etc…so the fears from before just changed. Until I got better nothing was going to change, at least nothing in a positive way. I accepted I needed help and started the long l=road to getting better…in spite of the FEAR that came with it!
