To a degree, he has already done this when taking moral inventory, but now the time has come when he ought to redouble his efforts to see how many people he has hurt, and in what ways. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 77
As I continue to grow in sobriety, I become more aware of myself as a person of worth. In the process, I am better able to see others as persons, and with this comes the realization that these were people whom I had hurt in my drinking days. I didn’t just lie, I lied about Tom. I didn’t just cheat, I cheated Joe. What were seemingly impersonal acts, were really personal affronts, because it was people—people of worth—whom I had harmed. I need to do something about the people I have hurt so that I may enjoy a peaceful sobriety.
Alcoholics Anonymous World Service Inc.. Daily Reflections: A Book of Reflections by A.A. Members for A.A. Members (Kindle Locations 1627-1628). A.A. World Services, Inc.. Kindle Edition.
It became time now to redouble my efforts…it was time to take action for the things I did or didn’t do to specific people by recognizing exactly what those wrongs or acts of omissions were. This was now going to require time and effort. I had to strengthen my consciousness, by becoming aware of the exact nature of my past what had occurred and to whom and then I had exert the power by remaining willing to make these amends when the time came and actually make them. Of course that was the hardest part. I knew what I had done to harm all the people on my list…it was the face to face amends that was scaring me….I wasn’t quite there yet, so as long as I continued to pray and remain willing, I figured by the time that time came, I’d be ready to accomplish this dreadful, frightful act. I also knew that I had to do it otherwise I would not get sober and not be able to enjoy that peaceful sobriety that I been hearing about.
24 Hours a Day
A.A. Thought for the Day
“The tremendous fact for every one of us is that we have discovered a common solution. We who have found this solution to our alcoholic problem, who are properly armed with the facts about ourselves, can generally win the entire confidence of another alcoholic. We who are making the approach to a new prospect have had the same difficulty as he has had, we obviously know what we are talking about, our whole deportment shouts at the new prospect that we are men with a real answer.” Am I a person with the real answer to the alcoholic problems of others?
Meditation for the Day
For straying from the right way there is no cure except to keep so close to the thought of God that nothing, no other interest, can seriously come between you and God. Sure of that, you can stay on God’s side. Knowing the way, nothing can prevent your staying in the way and nothing can cause you to seriously stray from it. God has promised peace if you stay close to Him, but not leisure. You still have to carry on in the world. He has promised heart-rest and comfort, but not pleasure in the ordinary sense. Peace and comfort bring real inward happiness.
Prayer for the Day
I pray that I may keep my feet on the way. I pray that I may stay on God’s side.
Anonymous. Twenty-Four Hours A Day (p. 91). Martino Fine Books. Kindle Edition.
My thought…FINALLY, I am not the ONLY one that feels this way. There is a Solution! In Chapter 2 of the Big Book. I found that solution and became willing to give what I found back to others. This in turn kept and still keeps be from drinking and more importantly sober. I was taught from day one that I needed to approach new comers and share my experience, strength and hope. If they want what I had, whether it was one day of not drinking or ten years of sobriety they would have to do what I did. I knew how they felt but they had no idea how I felt. We have the answer for the new comer to not only Stop drinking, but stay Stopped. I am the person with the real answer to the alcoholic problems of others. I am uniquely qualified to help them. With the knowledge too, that I am not able to help them in any other way…with their marriage, money problems, relationships, etc…I will listen, but only help them to not to drink One Day At A Time!
My Meditation…I definitely did stray way back when. I say that because I always prayed as a kid and young adult…I have said that. However, somewhere along the way I stopped. Have not idea why, have an idea maybe why. At 19 years old my older died. I could not understand if there was a God, why would He let that happen to me? So may be this is when I stopped believing and praying. So the belief was there, just became stagnant. When it became time to start praying again it wasn’t as hard for me as some. So through meditation and prayer on a daily basis I have learned that I can gain inner peace and comfort and all is well with the world if I remain close to my Higher Power (remember I use God and Higher Power interchangeably).
My Prayer…I also have to carry on in this world…good, bad, ugly, whatever the day may bring and so I do the footwork (keeping my feet on the ground, my head out of the clouds) and God helps keep me moving forward – I remain willing and He helps give me the strength and power.